I have to be honest, it’s the next best thing other than being nice right?
I’ve been struggling. Ask me how I’m doing and I’ll tell you I’m struggling.
Homework is difficult because my job is difficult and I feel like everything is unraveling around me. I feel like maybe I’m really not cut out for this counseling thing, until a client came to me within her deepest despair and the counseling process opened up and started to flow out of me. Afterwards the client had told me that ever since they met me they knew I would be the one that they could come and talk to, and suddenly I started seeing the light breaking through the clouds.
I work for a non-profit crisis residential program with people who are currently in crisis come and stay 30 days to work on a treatment plan to live a better life essentially. These people are seriously unwell. So everyday I never know what I’m going to walk in to. My first month in and I already had a client file a grievance with me and I had to talk to the state investigator about it on my birthday, it was so nerve wratching! I’m learning that I can’t take anything personal but it’s HARD. I just want to counsel people but I did need to experience this side of the field too. I’m thankful for the job, I’m just needing to bring in my spiritual care if not I’ll digress quickly…..
The Shift is occurring within and around us and it’s effecting everything and everyone, so what do you do? I work on my spiritual health to keep me going. Due to the stress and anxiety I’ve dealing with school and work I need something that intervenes and helps my soul and it’s this, this what I’m doing right, sharing my story to someone who might care….I care, I had to let it go, all the unwanted, all the uninvited energies, I had to let them go. A sweet woman I call Auntie Judy knew of my struggles and she asked if she could give me a spiritual healing using light language. It’s the language that only the soul can understand. Immediately I felt better. She advised me to have a black tourmaline stone with me at all times because this stone grounds me and protects my spirit from negative energies. I bought a chakra bracelet and a small bad to carry certain stones to help my aura cleanse itself and to not keep any unwanted energy, yes the stone will help with all of that!
I also take bubble baths with blessed salt to cleanse my spirit. These techniques really do help bring me back to balance. The picture below is my small temple. I have Ganesh protecting Babe’s picture in the middle, a cookie fortune that says, well I don’t honestly know at the moment, another stone I can’t remember and a larger piece of Black Tourmaline. Inside are the many different crystals I carry on the daily for spiritual protection and ascension. Even with the darkest days spirituality is still everything to me!
This past Sunday I went to church for our “All message and healing service”. I usually go and work as a student medium, assisting the Pastor with giving those in the congregation a spirit greeting (short message). This service, will be be the one service I will never forget.
If you follow me then you would know that the greatest love of my life, my grandmother, made her transition three months ago. The experience changed me, it made me confident enough to go forward with my efforts of giving readings and counseling sessions. Well, we had a guest medium, by the name of Tom Flynn, a British medium who was visiting our church. It just seemed like every message he gave to someone was a message from “Babe” indirectly. He “inadvertently” made his way to me.
He first asked me to confirm physical characteristics which I knew was already my Babe. Throughout the reading I began to cry almost uncontrollably because I miss her and…. I thought she would’ve come to me by now. About 2 weeks before she transitioned, before we knew we would be leaving us I had asked her to come and visit me…. I’m still waiting…
Then he told me that my Grandmother wanted to hold my hand and to hold it out in front of me. I did as instructed and waited. He told me a few seconds later that she would be holding my hand and that I should feel a coldness in the center of my palm, immediately after he said that I felt the chill in the center of my left hand which was opened. That’s when the tears really started fallin down. I feel like I’ve lost a soulmate, that’s how deep my love for her is. I’m not lost trying to find her and I do feel her and hear her sometimes…. I loved to hold her hand so it’s not that strange that she wanted to hold my hand that day. Her touch was and still is everything to me… there just isn’t another type of love to compare to the kinda love I have for her.
If you have experienced a feeling like I’ve described please comment below, I would love to hear about it! Also, if you LOOOVVEEE the photo down below please click on it and it will take you to AMBER’S page! I felt that it was so fitting for this post! Thank you for allowing me to share this with you. I love you.
“We are all visitors to this place. We are just passing through. Our purpose here is to observe, to learn, to grow, to love… and then we return home.”
This just makes sense if you really took the time to go deeper into reasoning. I mean let’s ponder on this for a moment…. if nothing had purpose and we all lived from a “something”, then everything would be nothing. There would be nothing that would tie us together. Existence just doesn’t operate in that way. Life has meaning and nothing is a coincidence. Life is only a metaphor for school. As we live, we learn. As we learn, we grow, which is the purpose of everything.
Spirituality is the key to awakening. How is anyone suppose to tell you how you see, feel, or connect with yourself and the world around you? They can’t. This is a personal journey in a never ending path of truth. Energy is everything. It is created and never destroyed. Once one realizes this everything that was once known as truth collapses and reforms. Metaphysically speaking, we live in the moment of now where we are the creator of our lives, our paths, our future, ultimately our destiny. Give yourself some credit, if you were made from God, then God you are, and you too have the power to create your own reality, energy, and desires. Uplift yourself and others, only then are you living up to your soul’s purpose of existence; love.
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