Found A Life Worth Living Without You: A Letter About the Survival of Love

Dear Babe,
Your soul decided to go Home two years ago. I remember the moment your Soul spoke to me and you told me, “I’m tired, I’m tired”. At that very moment I saw you as though I was viewing you in tunnel vision. Your mouth didn’t move. Immediately tears rolled down my face and I knew your time here on this dense plane was temporary. The last sentence you said to me was, “I love you too Amber”. I ran from the room and HE ran after me and held me as my soul wept. The wall hallway tormented me and I felt small, almost non-existent as if life wasn’t worth living anymore. An existence without you was inconceivable. Here at the age of 27 I felt life was no longer prevalent. August 18th I sat next to your bed and read you a Sylvia Browne book about crossing over. I stuttered fighting against fatigue and sorrow. I was suppose to spend the night with you and twin but the hospital didn’t have an extra chair bed so before I left I sat beside you and grabbed your bruised hand, kissed your third eye, and stroked your face.

As I was walking out of the door I said, “I’ll spend the night with you tomorrow night. I love you Babe”, and without delay I heard, “I love you too”. No hesitation I said, “She still here, I just heard her say I love you too”. I left my twin and my greatest love for the last time. 3am my Mom called and simply said, “She’s gone”.

My Babe
This time last year I was inconsolable, but I heard your voice tell me to get up and go to church so church is where I went. It was healing and what I needed. All last week I kept hearing and noticing your name…. Madeline, Maddie. For example, I was speaking to you on my way to work on Wednesday last week which isn’t uncommon. When I got to work I had an urge to look at the painted portrait that hangs on the wall besides my work desk and I noticed the artist’s name was Maddie and it was dated ’16. I’ve been sitting at this desk for 3 months and never noticed this. Over the weekend I was speaking to twin and I told her what I had been noticing and I told her I knew that was your way of communicating with me. She went to see a medium and at the end of the reading and WE came up. She asked if she had a sister, which she said yes. She then went onto say, that YOU were with me during this time and were encouraging me to heighten my confidence with a project that I’m doing. That gave me the validation that you ARE and HAVE BEEN communicating with me. Oh Babe, I miss your smile and your touch but because of your love, I know life again is worth living. I’m okay too, I’m surviving this existence without your physicality. I can do this because I’m your granddaughter.
I’ve never known a love as pure nor a soul as beautiful and wise as yours.
Love your Baby.

Explaining My Disconnect with Spirit Communication

I’ve been listening to the audio book, The Aftermath of Billy Fingers by Annie Kagan. It’s a story of a sister who shares her journey with her brother and his journey into the Universe in Spirit form. I experienced a synchronicity while listening to the book that just occurred, and it’s something that Billy communicated to his sister. The message he gave was that he was preparing to enter into and become part of the Universe in which he stated, “I will be moving into the Universe where I will be nothing and everything at the same time. I will never again come to Earth. I will never leave you.

If you’ve been following me via here and social media you will know of my struggles with happiness. During my state of unhappiness I became disconnected from Spirit communication, I created a blockage. As I move through my anxiety which involves letting go of control and expectations, I’m now opening and clearing myself of what no longer serves me. Last night my Grandmother came through and told me, “I’ve never left you“. This time spent in unhappiness I could feel it hear her anymore. Now I’ve been feeling her Spirit around me ever since. I am a psychic medium but I’m also a human being who struggles as well.

In the future I plan to create a mentorship for other psychic mediums who find themselves in similar situations and help them process what is happening. Awareness is key to change and development, so be on the lookout! If you’re not subscribed to my website & monthly newsletter and want to be comment below and I’ll send you a link to get signed up!

Namaste.

Amber Choisella