4 Ways Spiritual Development Can Combat Against Anxiety

It wasn’t until I was 26 years old and in graduate school until I learned that I have been struggling with anxiety for the majority of my life. For some reason I thought anxiety was someone hyperventilating in a brown paper bag which was really ignorant for me to believe. I was enrolled in Mental Health Counseling and I was reviewing the different diagnoses that fall within the anxiety spectrum of disorders which I came face to face with my life changing epiphany…. I’m an anxious woman.

What does an anxious woman look like?

Here’s a plot twist… I saw my first discarnate Spirit at the age of 6 meaning that I am a medium. I have the ability to communicate with former living beings. I don’t like the word ghosts, Spirit, to be correct. It’s terrifying to hear unintelligible voices while laying down in bed alone and it’s literally nerve racking every time I saw Spirit because I never knew when another experience would happen. Looking back I now notice the signs of my anxiety related to my observance of the paranormal:

1. Fast heartbeat

Whenever I would feel a message from Spirit coming through or had a “feeling” about  something it would bring me high anxiety, so high that all I could do was cry because I didn’t know what happening to me. Not having someone to talk to about your symptoms of anxiety seems to intensifies it.

2. Constantly worried about future events

“What if’s” are the perfect example to illustrate this symptom.  The occurrence of “what if’s” a major concern of people who struggle with anxiety. The issue with this is that when we’re focused on the what if’s we’re missing from the present because we’re too busy focused on the future.

3. Never wanting to sleep with the door open

My nightly worries were focused on whether or not I would hear or see something during the night. I would always feel something looking at me from the doorway every time my bedroom door stayed open at night. Even to this day I prefer to sleep with my door shut. Rumination, the act of constantly thinking of something will keep someone up throughout the night.

 

Let’s get to the 4 ways that spiritual development can help you to combat your anxiety:

 

1. You a psychic, medium, or both.

If you’re like me then experiencing spiritual phenomena such as hearing voices (nothing confirming you have super human powers or that you are a God, if so I suggest you seek help immediately), seeing things out of the corner of your eyes or literally right in front of you, sensing energy and other people’s emotions, or dreaming about events that come true or being visited by loved ones in Spirit while you sleep. That shit can be pretty nerve-racking if you don’t understand what’s happening and you have no one to talk to about it. It can feel like you are literally going crazy in the cabeza….. you’re not. You just need help understanding your environment and how to gain control of it.

 

2. You’re an empath.

When I was younger I worked at this shit job which made the situation even worse to endure, anyways, I thought for sure I had developed a bladder infection. I was urinating frequently which is a tell tale symptom of a bladder infection so I went to the doctor to get checked out and to get antibiotics. I was confused when all of my tests came back negative, I didn’t have a bladder infection. I couldn’t understand it because I definitely had the symptoms. Having to pee every 10 minutes is not normal, right…? So not long after my appointment I went to the bathroom and one of my co-worker joined me at the sink. She told me that she had a bladder infection that turned into a kidney infection and she  was telling me how much pain she was in. Immediately after hearing this all of my symptoms stopped. Just like that, abracadabra I was healed. This is a classic example of being an empath and taking in energy from others. Ever wonder why you always get anxious when you get around a certain individual or you feel the tension of a room where an argument just took place, well it’s because you have the ability of clairsentience, the ability to clearly feel energy.

3. Learning how to meditate and ground.

Often times when we feel anxiety it’s because one, you’re not in the present and are too focused on the future and second, you’re unbalanced. I am guilty of this as well, which is why I’m writing about anxiety and spirituality, this can be conquered! I digress…. two weeks ago  I was suffering from symptoms of Premenstrual Dysphoric Disorder (PMDD) and my anxiety was on 100 for over a week. I spoke to a friend of mine at work and she asked if I wanted to go on a walk outside. We found a sunny patch of grass where she suggested that we take our socks and shoes off and plant our feet on the ground. Yo, no lie, immediately as my feet touched the ground I felt all of my anxiety draw away from me. I felt my energy straightening out and I became calm. All I needed to do was reconnect with nature, whaddya know.

4. Use protection stones.

Crystals are elements of the Earth that assist in energy healing and balancing. I know a lot of folks who prefer to carry stones in their pockets or around the necks to help protect and balance their energy, so what could it not work for anxiety too, it can! Crystals are not my specific forte so I found a great article here that you can read to familiarize yourself with crystals that directly treat anxiety. I personally like to carry Black Tourmaline to help me ease the anxs.

 

Well there you go, I reviewed a few symptoms of anxiety along with 4 ways to use spiritual development to help you exacerbate it.

If you would like more information about how to develop spiritually, I have created a program specifically directed towards understanding your innate spiritual gifts that naturally tend to cause anxiety. Click on the picture and check it out below!

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Conquering Anxiety

Lately life has been ROUGH. That’s all caps and bold because there’s no other way I can quite describe it. I am in my final 5 weeks down to completing my Master’s program in addition to moving an hour away from my current job and internship. Every day I am at my internship site for a few hours then I work an 8 hour shift, and drive an hour home. I get home at 12am -ish and then go to sleep for a few hours, just to get up and do it all again. Oh and just not forget the fact that I just recovered from a chronic sinus infection that 3 rounds of antibiotics could not kill. I’ve spend 3 months of coughing incessantly with no to no sleep until 2 weeks again when I finally saw an Allergist and she prescribed me a steroid and antibiotics, which cleared me up QUICK. To say that I have been struggling these last 3 weeks is an understatement. I have spend many days and nights crying to myself, my therapist, my partner, and really anyone who pretends to want to listen. Honestly, I wish I had the affordability to quit work and focus entirely on graduating but that’s just not the reality I live in.

Whenever I struggle in life I tend to block the world from seeing this side of me. It’s like I have to maintain this certain image of myself to the world. I always have to be positive and hopeful; the carrier of light for others, but again, this is not the reality in which I live in. Shit is real, no one can always be positive and uplifting all the time and there’s no fucking shame in that. I  STRUGGLE and I lost my HAPPINESS in the mist of trying to do everything I’m suppose to be doing.  I lost sight of what happiness means for me. Spirituality and nature makes me happy but honestly I’ve been too exhausted to do anything close to these two things.  Does this make me weak or less than the image you’ve created for me?

Learning to stay fully in the present is hard within chaos, but it’s doable. 5 weeks isn’t too far away and when I choose to stay in this moment I alleviate the thrills of anxiety, discouragement, and a place of swallowed darkness. I’m not always the uplifting spiritual teacher/ mentor but I’ll always be the realest spiritual teacher/mentor because at the end of each day I am a Spirit living a human existence. Forgive me for I shall not lie or pretend to be someone I’m not; I’m just Amber Choisella.

The Shift and What To Do When It’s Happening 

I have to be honest, it’s the next best thing other than  being nice right? 

I’ve been struggling. Ask me how I’m doing and I’ll tell you I’m struggling.

Homework is difficult because my job is difficult and I feel like everything is unraveling around me. I feel like maybe I’m really not cut out for this counseling thing, until a client came to me within her deepest despair and the counseling process opened up and started to flow out of me. Afterwards the client had told me that ever since they met me they knew I would be the one that they could come and talk to, and suddenly I started seeing the light breaking through the clouds.wp-1486026405935.png

I work for a non-profit crisis residential program with people who are currently in crisis come and stay 30 days to work on a treatment plan to live a better life essentially. These people are seriously unwell. So everyday I never know what I’m going to walk in to. My first month in and I already had a client file a grievance with me and I had to talk to the state investigator about it on my birthday, it was so nerve wratching! I’m learning that I can’t take anything personal but it’s HARD. I just want to counsel people but I did need to experience this side of the field too. I’m thankful for the job, I’m just needing to bring in my spiritual care if not I’ll digress quickly…..

The Shift is  occurring within and around us and it’s effecting everything and everyone, so what do you do? I work on my spiritual health to keep me going. Due to the stress and anxiety I’ve dealing with school and work I need something that intervenes and helps my soul and it’s this, this what I’m doing right, sharing my story to someone who might care….I care, I had to let it go, all the unwanted, all the uninvited energies, I had to let them go. A sweet woman I call Auntie Judy knew of my struggles  and she asked if she could give me a spiritual healing using light language. It’s the language that only the soul can understand. Immediately I felt better. She advised me to have a black tourmaline stone with me at all times because this stone grounds me and protects my spirit from negative energies. I bought a chakra bracelet and a small bad to carry certain stones to help my aura cleanse itself and to not keep any unwanted energy, yes the stone will help with all of that! 

I also take bubble baths with blessed salt to cleanse my spirit. These techniques really do help bring me back to balance. The picture below is my small temple. I have Ganesh protecting Babe’s picture in the middle, a cookie fortune that says, well I don’t honestly know at the moment, another stone I can’t remember and a larger piece of Black Tourmaline. Inside are the many different crystals I carry on the daily for spiritual protection and ascension. Even with the darkest days spirituality is still everything to me!

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Babe will always be the center of my heart.

New Beginnings and Service to Others

2016 has been a rough year for everyone and now it’s nearing its end…. FINALLY. We could choose to indulge in our losses or accept them as a necessity for us to move forward. I experienced death 3x this year and as I accept them I’ll never be the same without them, Your Ashes Feel Like Home. and Message from Grandma.  With that said, I’ve moved on the best that I can which also included being laid off from my job at the end of the month, YET, had I not been laid off, I would not have gained the position I have now which is in my career field. Things have to fall a part before greater things can come together. 

Anxiety has been another factor that I’ve had to deal with this year, something I didn’t recognize I have been dealing with until this year. As a child who experienced spiritual phenomenon I never understand the feelings I would experience underneath everything else I was seeing, hearing, and sensing but anxiety has been a companion of mine for many many years. Counseling helped when my Grandma transitioned onward and it was then that I realized ANXIETY as a partner I’ve never recognized.

I have to thank the love for my life for supporting and uplifting me throughout every loss and crisis I’ve experienced. He has been my guiding light, the Love of my Light, my Atheist Love, to read more about our Spiritualist & Atheist relationship please read The Ideal Relationship Between an Atheist & Spiritualist. Opposites do attract and everything is meant to be for reasoning of love and learning. The picture below is what I took while riding as a passenger to Mendocino, CA. It’s where My Love takes me to unwind and relax when life gets to be too much. It’s the town that sits on a cliff and love is felt everywhere.

Lastly, this year I’ve placed my fears aside and began servicing others spiritually through my intuitive readings. When I service others I heal myself. If you are in the Sacramento, California area and would like to schedule a face to face session with me please reach out to me via my email, I would LOVE to hear from you!

 

 

 

HWY 1 en route to Mendocino, CA

 

Anxiety, You Won’t Annihilate Me!

Everything isn’t what it seems and darkness is never dark forever. Yet I’m not in a dark place, more so in a gray space where I’m overwhelmed, in turmoil, and being attacked, or so it seems. ANXIETY, is a bitch, mind the word choice. I found a connection with it and my spiritual growth that I’ve been impressed to share. If interested please continue reading….

I always had this mental image of what ANXIETY actually looked. Hyperventilation is what comes to mind and it’s always followed with a panic attack, right? I never realized that all this time I’ve been struggling with this and I didn’t realize it until recently. Mental health counseling was the field I decided to do my Master’s program within due to my innate passion  for the mental health community. I’ve been learning so much about my own struggles as I continue forward in my education, so much that I have notice an intertwining with my spirituality.

Change is the culprit to my grayness, and it’s never long lasting. Change is a positive because it just means there’s something around the corner, something more to discover about self. I have a hard time dealing with change to be honest, it’s HARD. Grayness filters over and it’s hard to see the outside so I resort back into my inside, similar to what depressed people do, withdraw themselves from society. I become lost within my own fears and it’s debilitating. BUT, it’s never for too long before amazing things start to happen…

Spiritually speaking, everything happens for a reason and there is no cause without effect, metaphysically speaking. So if I believe this is true, then I should expect wonderful, brilliant things to happen but I don’t. The DSM-V  states the following symptoms of an anxiety disorder:

  1. Excessive anxiety and worry (apprehensive expectation), occurring more days than not for at least 6 months, about a number of events or activities (such as work or school performance).
  2. The individual finds it difficult to control the worry.
  3. The anxiety and worry are associated with three (or more) of the following six symptoms (with at least some symptoms having been present for more days than not for the past 6 months):

    Note: Only one item is required in children.

    1. Restlessness or feeling keyed up or on edge.
    2. Being easily fatigued.
    3. Difficulty concentrating or mind going blank.
    4. Irritability.
    5. Muscle tension.
    6. Sleep disturbance (difficulty falling or staying asleep, or restless, unsatisfying sleep).
  4. The anxiety, worry, or physical symptoms cause clinically significant distress or impairment in social, occupational, or other important areas of functioning.

I find myself within the A category only when change has occurred. I have not visited a professional to be properly diagnosed, but I know myself for 27 years, and I also know how to correct it. Simply by living in the moment.

Being present is challenging with so much in the world to stimulants us and distract us from the moment. Nature, this setting always brings me back to calmness and balance. It’s ultimately where my spirit is available to roam free. Finding what speaks to your inner being is the best form of treatment and this varies in form. If you have been clinically diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder than please do not divert from your own treatment plan, but I highly suggest you, if you haven’t already, implement a spiritual concept to interject in your everyday life and watch how your life will improve. I suggest this for all mental disorders actually! One day I hope to join both counseling concepts and theories with spiritual concepts and theories for overall wellness.

My cover picture was “accidentally” taken in my jacket pocket on a day out in nature… this picture brings me hope and purpose, most importantly it affirms that nothing is by accident. I will battle with my anxiety for probably the rest of my life and I can accept this. This does not define the woman or spirit that I am. I can only improve, learn, and share with others in hopes that they or you too can resonate with my story. If you would like to share your experiences please do!

 

Amber Choisella