How to Manifest and Attract a Relationship with Spirit’s Help

How to manifest Love & Attract a relationship with Spirit

 

I’ll never be happy, no one will ever love me, why do I always feel like I’m being used, these are all things I know I’ve heard myself over and over and over again. It’s difficult to even conceive love if you don’t know what love is to begin with, so let’s start from there. Love is ever supportive, always encouraging, and is unconditional is every way.

 

Let’s go all the way back to the first moment you felt what love was. Could it have been as inside of the womb when your mother sang to you and upon being born you remembered the vibration of love in the membrane of your soul? Or could it have been when you spent time with your grandparents on holidays because they lived far away from you and you remember the scent of grandma’s cooking every time you walked through the door? There are many opportunities to experience love but the most important love begins with self first. Did that struck a cord from within, good it was meant to.  Now that you’re in the feels of the originator of heartbreak time and time again, let’s worked towards understanding why and what Spirit has to do with it.

 

We accept the love we think we deserve and what that truly means is that we attract what we energetically send out. Think about it for a minute and examine what you allow and who you surround yourself with. Birds of a feather flock together, wow, I’m on a roll with these catchy sayings, I digress, but seriously examine the energy that surrounds you and what type of energy you allow within your energetic field. We all have an energetic field also know as an aura and it surrounds our body in addition the aura also holds onto energy as well which can be more harm than good. The law of attraction doesn’t just focus on energy of the living but also the discarnate to be weary of the energy that you put out there because it’ll come straight to you!

 

Spirit wants you to be happy and feel loved because you are the love in which you seek. That is my favorite message from Spirit, “you are the love in which you seek” and in order to find it you have to go within. If you get doing the same actions and expect a different result you are wrong! Spirit is always with you whether you are aware of them or not and whether you are aware of it or not, you can ask for their assistance, don’t just ask the Universe, check in with Spirit (Guides, Loved Ones, and Angels).  Developing rapport with your Spirit Gang is SOOOOOO important! To pound this concept into your skull I’m gonna share with you my experience with allowing Spirit in to help guide me finding a love that is for my highest best!

 

I always desired love from a partner. I desired that attention from someone, someone who wanted me as much as I wanted them, but it never worked because I only attracted the wounded who were incapable of loving others. I experienced the desire from love from a dysfunctional relationship I had with my father as a child up into adolescent so I was also a wounded soul who unknowingly was attracting the same lower vibration wishing and not understanding why I couldn’t get anything “better” than what I was getting. It was so hard to look at myself in the mirror and be in awe with its reflection. I was in an abusive relationship and could not understand why… why me? It wasn’t until I started to develop my spiritual abilities that my energy started to vibrate differently, vibrate higher that I was able to connect to a high level of vibration of self-love. After I committed myself to falling in love with myself first I created a list of characteristics that I wanted in a partner. I did this in a letter to the Universe, in which I entitled it. I wrote down about 13 traits then folded it up and placed it in my purse forgetting all about it. Approximately 30 days later my now partner send me a message on a dating app that I was guided to create six months prior. Change happens when change happens. Change your vibration and know that the change you’re looking for will be very evident in your life.

 


 

 

Acceptance could be such a kick in the ass sometimes….

Acceptance my friends can be the hardest thing to achieve.

I mean look at it this way, things we can’t control, how easy it that to accept? Horrible things that happen to us and the world around us and we’re just suppose to accept it? Yep, it’s the first step to growing and moving forward with your life.

I’m not gonna lie, acceptance for me is challenging especially when I’m struggling with something specifically. Right now it’s difficult for me to accept the fact that I agreed to move and now live in an area where it snows, temperatures drop below freezing, and sometimes the power goes out. Acclimating to this environment is HARD some moments throughout the day are easier than others just like my experience today. This morning my truck completely stopped running while I was on the freeway. Normally this would have skyrocketed my anxiety but I came to accept the situation immediately and stayed calm. I was astonished by this odd behavior that but I rode with it. I waited for an hour for a tow truck to pick me up after being told it would only be 30 minutes before a truck would come and save me. I didn’t even get irritated when I called for an ETA, AMAZING. CHP (California Highway Patrol) and Caltrans (state agency for transportation) both stopped by to check on how I was doing, what was wrong, and if i needed help. I forgot that my license has expired and I’m waiting for a new one in the mail to arrive…. oops. After I told the officer that I am a counselor and that I was heading down to juvenile hall to meet with the kids there, he forgot about asking me for important stuff like my license, registration, and proof of insurance, but hey I wasn’t there to remind him either.

In that particular moment I was living presently in acceptance and that was definitely a noticeable point of growth.

When we learn to accept and let go of control that’s when we are able to be present in Universal Consciousness.

Acceptance is one in the same with forgiveness, in the same token that we forgive others not for them but for our own healing to take place. Acceptance doesn’t take away from our pain but it does move us into the direction of transformation and healing.

May this be the message you needed to hear.

Shifting from Anger to Love

Ever since my Traditional Amazonian Plant Medicine ceremony my perception on others has shifted. Last week I visited a client at school and I noticed a teenage “low melanin” boy with a painted black face and red lipstick laughing amongst his friends. I stared at him and felt sadness for him. Most likely he has no idea the history behind “blackface” and why it is offensive to people with “high melanin”, people of color. I’m was not upset surprisingly, I felt compassion for this child’s ignorance. Hate can’t match hate, we have to rise above and love to create change. Love and education really.

I’m beginning to shift easier from anger to love and frustration to understanding quicker than ever before. Once an individual agrees to heal with TAPM a transformation immediately takes place and you are never the same after. I say this before we break through negative belief systems, fears, and timelines of past lives that are stored within our consciousness. We release what we no longer need. I’ll record a vlog explaining more in depth all of my integration symptoms and changes soon!

♥Amber Choisella

Vlog Describing My Intensely Beautiful Experience with Traditional Amazonian Plant Medicine

For those of you who have read  My Experience with Traditional Amazonian Plant Medicine. This is the vlog of this experience! If you haven’t yet read this blog yet, please do and then watch the video, or vice-versa! Comment if you’ve had experience with TAPM or Plant Medicine I love to hear about other people’s experiences!

My Experience with Traditional Amazonian Plant Medicine

Last Saturday I participated in a Traditional Amazonian Plant Medicine ceremony (TAPM). The following are my thoughts, feelings, and revolutions before and after the ceremony:

October 13th. 2018

Intentions for the Ceremony

  • I intend to be healed from my physical illness/s
  • I intend to have my DNA be activated
  • I intend to see my loved ones in Spirit
  • I intend to open my 3rd eye even more
  • I intend to travel and see Lightbeings
  • I intend for my mediumistic abilities to grow
  • I intend to learn so that I can share with others

SURRENDER to the process.

SURRENDER to the process.

SURRENDER to the process.

8:30pm

She tasted like chocolate to me. When I asked if that’s how She really tastes I was told NO.  May this be a sweet and fulfilling journey.

Bright ideas, we got bright ideas.

Bright ideas, we got bright ideas.

-SZA

7:15am October 14th, 2018

I waited for an hour and a half for the first dose of Mother to work, meanwhile I just felt really restless, couldn’t stop moving. I asked for another dose. I was tired so I decided to lay down and go to sleep. Approximately 30 minutes later I shot straight up from my sleep and from there the journey began.

I recognized how I felt. I felt as though I had taken an 1/8th of mushrooms so I wasn’t alarmed. I felt like I had to pee. As soon as I got into the bathroom I immediately threw up in the toilet. I wasn’t even nauseous but up it came; the purge began.

One of the ceremony helpers (Earth Angel) came and asked me if I was okay. I said no. I asked if they could walk with me back to the ceremonial space, they did. I didn’t get to urinate so when I came back I was immediately reminded and I asked the Shaman to take me, they did. I felt the split of reality which is normal while on a mushroom trip adn I was okay with that. We walked back to the ceremonial space and that’s when I began to descend in to my dark space.

I felt like I was going back into the space I found myself in the last time I experienced plant medicine. It terrified me because for the first time in my life I contemplated suicide. I became extremely uncomfortable and said out loud, “Why am I doing this again?” That’s where one of the helpers (Soul SiStar) came and when she touched me I knew I was going to be okay. The Earth Angel came and I looked at them and said, “Please help me”. They then placed another arm around me; I truly felt supported. Then I began to loudly purge. During this time the Shaman began singing in an indigenous Amazonian language, that I obviously didn’t understand. I did not want to let go of the Soul SiStar because I knew her, I trusted her, and her energy felt so calming. They (Earth Angel and Soul SiStar) both reminded me that I am a Goddess and that I must stand tall and remember to breath, deep breath. The purging continued. The Shaman then came and sat next to and for some reason I felt…. not quite afraid but apprehensive of their presence. Their energy was very powerful and BIG. They asked for the helpers to leave but I was adamant that Soul SiStar stayed. I needed her, and so she stayed. She continued to rub my back and remind me that “I am a Goddess” and practiced deep breathing with her. I grabbed very tightly to her leg as I could not let go. It was a sense of control, which I didn’t really have, and my only sense of normality.

The Shaman sang their song which was just for me and when they touched me, I felt such an immense and calming power rush over and through me. They were smoking tobacco and reminding me why I was here. Their laughter felt so loving and I began to ascend out of the hell I was in. Then I started to cry. I cried lakes and waterfalls. I was loud and vulnerable. I was freely releasing. The Shaman told me, “I see you as a beacon, this is where you are most grounded”. I knew that was true and I began to cry. They then said, “Thank you for showing up . You are here to do the hard work. The work isn’t easy.” They continued to sing to me and I entered into unity consciousness. I felt true unconditional love, a space where we are ONE as that is the true definition of love.

I wept and was given a message, “This is not yours to release” and I knew I wept for my ancestors and the people of the world and I was okay with this. The Shaman had left me in the hands of the Soul SiStar. I was no longer gripping her knee. We were sitting side by side to one another and she continued to rub my back and reminded me to breathe. She asked me twice if I was ready to lay down, I wasn’t. I remember how clear my sinuses were and how full of gratitude I felt for this entire experience. I repeatedly say, “Thank you, thank you, thank you” quietly. When I was ready to lay down I spoke silently to Babe (my Grandmother), “Grandma where were you?” She responded, “I am here and was with you this entire time. You needed to do this work. I ‘m always with you”. I drifted off to sleep, highly uncomfortable sleeping in a sleeping bag on a cold floor with coughing spells.

As I write I hear birds chirping and the sounds of this waterfall cascading into a beautiful pond in front of me and I feel… lighter, more forgiving of self, and grateful for this experience. It is now my responsible to share what I’ve learned.

Understanding the Darkness

The darkness is different for every individual. My darkness felt more like an overall fear. I was completely lucid of the way I felt and the world outside of myself, I can’t quite explain it. The darkness is comprised of our fears, blockages, past life traumas, and ancestral traumas. The more one purges (expelling the darkness through vomiting, defecating, burping, crying, or moving around, all of these are moving energy). Once we started our purging we are then able to release what we no longer need nor want. Some have said this is call Death of the Ego, but that’s not what I understood my darkness to be. I called this entire experience, Intensely Beautiful.

After Affects of TAPM

It’s a week since the ceremony and I have been experiencing…. thangs. Firstly, I’ve been having dreams with messages and prophecy. My body is now reacting differently to food and substances such as meat, fried foods, and even caffeine. I just can’t tolerate bullshit ass substances anymore. I haven’t ate meat nor craved it since last weekend. I’m still open to more upgrades as I am expected to experience more as time goes on. As part of the ceremonial package we participants receive coaching towards entering a lifestyle of cleaner eating (vegetarian, vegan, and pescatarian) and healing included with light language.

Who can participate in a Traditional Amazonian Plant Medicine Ceremony?

This process is a serious spiritual journey and one must be properly prepared before the ceremony.  This preparation includes a readiness of the soul “to do the work” necessary for ascension and need to practice clean eating, trust me this is a major component! This isn’t for an experience, it’s the means to ascend and grow etherically.

In Love and Light,

Amber Choisella♥

Kundalini Part 2: 8 Ways To Help Yourself Through Kundalini

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As not everyone can afford regular sessions with an energy healer or don’t have access to an energy healer. I wanted to give some tips on how to help yourself through this process. As much as you just want to stay in bed or lay on the couch, that is the wrong thing to do. If you work with the kundalini energy, you will get through this much faster and with less pain. It will make a difference in being in kundalini for years in pain to months and just being uncomfortable.

  1. As the energy can get pretty intense and build up causing pain or discomfort. Try laying down and releasing the excess energy. I have done this to release energy blocks too. Lay down and repeat a mantra for 10 or 15 minutes after a bit you should start to feel the energy lift. I make my own mantras…

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Kundalini Part 1: Physical Symptoms

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We have so many going through kundalini on earth. The newly ascended group is just beginning and the group already in it, is about to finish. When it come to kundalini age doesn’t matter. I am working with people in their 70’s that are going through it. Kundalini can be very uncomfortable and scary at times. Your body is going through massive changes, by the time kundalini is finished every inch of your body will be transformed into a lightbody. We have people that are in kundaini and not even aware of it, going through it. These people are running to the ER and the doctor only to be told nothing is wrong with them. We need more healers that can guide people through the process. I am having great success with getting people through it in a month to a month an a half. If you can go to…

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Explaining the Difference Between Metaphysical/Spiritual & Clinical Counseling

Hey Fellow Beings of Love,

I have just completed a video explaining the difference between Metaphysical/Spiritual and Clinical Counseling. As a therapist working towards licensure I have clinical experience with counseling clients in addition to possessing ministerial status with University of Metaphysics as I work through my doctoral program of Metaphysical Counseling. I felt it was a good time to discuss the differences between both services and what to expect with each module of counseling! Watch the video to hear the full discussion and tune in for the 1 card reading at the end of the video!

With Love,

Amber Choisella, B. Msc, MS