I don’t often get psychic readings but when I do I need to go to someone who I truly trust. Someone I know won’t bullshit me, perhaps someone I”ll be able to work with in the future, a true partnership. Anyways, this “sometimes” event happened this week after I had another dream about someone I experienced love with from my past. This hasn’t been the first dream that I’ve had about this specific person and I was finally ready for soul answers.
Seven years ago I met a young man who changed my life for the best and hurt me the deepest. I experienced intimacy at the age of 23 and endured a devastating heartbreak the following year, both by the same soul. During my time spent with this man he told me that he could never be the man I needed which I never understand. In the end he told me by via Facebook messenger that he had a girlfriend and could no longer talk to me. It was the most hurtful thing anyone you loved could do to you or so it felt like. It was the deepest wound I had ever been afflicted with. After that I never spoke to him or saw him again and now years later I’m still dreaming about him so what the hell is going on, especially since I’m in an amazing and healthy relationship.
In my latest dream he was present although he looked different I knew it was him. We were in a neighborhood where we spent time together. One day I was being assaulted with a man who brandished a gun and I cried out for Him by name. He saw me, made eye contact, and then looked away which was devastating. The next day I reached out to my dear psychic friend to help me discern my dreams. It’s going on 7 years since I met him and 6 years that I haven’t had any involvement with him, I needed soul answers.
My friend and I connected and the following is what he shared with me. First, I’m dreaming about him because it was a time in my life where I first came into my feminine power! Whenever I subconsciously forget my power he’ll come in and remind me; although on the other hand, in my dream when he chose not to help me in my conflict it is because in reality he had difficulty feeling equal to me. My friend asked me if that made sense and it did completely. This young man would always tell me that I was settling for him, I was truly a beautiful person, and that he could never give me the love that I deserved. I never understood what he meant by that, until my friend informed me that the young man that I loved felt inferior to me and with the previous statements he was telling me how he did not feel equal to me. He loved me but his ego would never allow him to be in a strong lasting relationship with me. Which would explain A LOT. Next he explained where my chiron (astrological chart concept) was in my chart. Before I state where it is I want to provide an overview of what a chiron is to my understanding. It is a past-life wound that carries karma which needs to be healed in this lifetime. My chiron was in the house of Cancer, and this young man was born in the astrological sign of Cancer. When he decided to break our relationship via Facebook Messenger one day in April 6 years ago it broke me in a way that I have never been hurt. It traumatized me actually. It was during this time that I began my own spiritual journey. I’ve ruminated with possible reasons as to why he would hurt me so deeply and now I know.
Sometimes I need to go outside of myself for help. Sometimes I need to ask someone else if for anything other than for validation and that’s okay. Psychic and mediums are spiritual advisors and communicators that are able to use tools and their spiritual gifts to bring forth information that we need. Even in the clinical world of counseling, therapists consult with one another and other professionals if need be for help with their clients. I’m not afraid to reach out for help in any area of my existence and you should not either.